Am I good enough?

I think we all have felt like we aren't good enough at some stage of our lives. It is possibly one of the worst feelings ever and I honestly wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. 

The main causes of me not feeling good enough is usually relationships and school. I hate when you're with somebody and you're just wondering if you're good enough I also hate when you're in a class that you hate, and you literally feel so down. For me this is business, Irish, science and maths just because I am so bad at these subjects and no matter what I just feel like whatever I do it isn't enough. Feeling like you've tried your best and it's not good enough is so hard to take not going to lie. 

My tips:

1. Remember you ARE enough. 
2. You are trying and that's what matters.
3. If you are feeling overwhelmed, do something that makes you feel good for example I love running because it makes me feel like I am in control of what I feel, and I can change it. 
4. If it is a subject you are worrying about, do as much study as you can! At least then you tried your best, and that's what matters. 
5. If it's a person you are worrying about, talk to that person, it may take a lot of courage but at least you'll know the answer. If that person doesn't appreciate your presence their loss not yours.
6. Focus on you. This is something most of us don't do, we focus on others. It is not selfish to focus on your self at the end of the day it is your life, and you have to live it for yourself and not others. If something is making you upset you have the ability to change it. I know this sounds daunting and easier said than done to change. 
7. Remember that it is okay not to be okay. It is perfectly normal for some days to be feeling amazing and others to be quite hard and tough, that's just the way life is. 
8. Remember that you got this. And you can do it if you believe in yourself. 

I just wanted to post this because I've been feeling so overwhelmed and not good enough, and honestly it's horrendous. I wouldn't want anyone to feel like this, hopefully these tips helped.

Stay strong, 

             Fiona xx

My Weekend Morning Routine

♡My weekend Morning Routine♡

Hello there, as you can tell this week I am doing my weekend morning routine. I for one love watching these videos on YouTube and reading blog posts routine related. I just love being able to see what somebody does in their morning. Without any more delay let's get into it!

Waking Up:

I let myself sleep in on the weekends until around 10:30 am just because I get up at 7:00 AM on a school day. I don't set an alarm so I don't always get up exactly at half past ten, but it's usually around there. 

This looks incredibly messy I'm sorry, this is literally what it looked like when I woke up.
Don't worry, I made the bed straight after. 

Breakfast:

My breakfast is very plain, just because I don't like eating a lot of heavy food in the morning. So this is just plain butter on toast.

A glass of water is so important, I'm sure like everyone else it's one of the first things you reach for in the morning. 

Getting ready for the day:

I love starting the day with a shower. It can just immediately make my mood go up, and on the plus side I smell good thanks to this Soap & Glory Foam Call I love this so much. Not only does it smell great, it lasts all day and feels so refreshing. It's literally heaven in a bottle.

I use the Nivea Gentle Cleansing Cream Wash as my face wash. It is so good. I got this as a present from my friend, and its so nice. It caters for people who have dry and sensitive skin. What I love about it is, it leaves my skin feeling so soft throughout the day and it just feels so silky.  

This is just a simple picture of my toothbrush and toothpaste, I know pretty self explanatory. Nothing feels better than fresh breath in the morning. 

I usually just wear what I wear to Youth club from the night before. So that was this lovely cropped white jumper from TopShop, and my pair of high wasted jeans from River Island, and my absolute favorite pair of Converse. In the first picture I have makeup on because I was going to YouthClub, but when I'm just at home doing nothing I'm not wearing any makeup. I just forgot to take a melfie today. 

  

I'm sorry about the first picture that you can see my reflection in the window, I only noticed it now, and my blur didn't do the best job, but what can you do. 

Sure are one of my favorite brands for deodorants, they last all day. And just smell amazing. I use the Sure Bright Bouquet it smells incredible. 

For that extra nice smell, I use Zoella Let's Spritz by the amazing Zoe Sugg. This smells like Summer in a bottle. As you can see it is well loved, and you can't go wrong with this scent. The reason this photo is so small is because my reflection was in the window again but the blur didn't work at all so I cropped it. 

 Next, I use this Ziaja natural olive cream as my moisturizer, I love this so much. It makes my skin really soft and really dewy. 

 For my hand cream, I use the Zoella Wonder Hand I love this so much. It makes my hands so soft. I have a review on this, which you can check out if you want. 
http://lookitsfifi.blogspot.ie/2016/01/zoella-wonder-hand-moisturising-hand.html

Planning my day:

I like to plan my days on days that I want to be productive or study. I find that when I have something written down it is more of a goal to me, and when I tick it off I just feel good. Not going to lie, I did stray away from this a little bit, not doing as much study as I should have considering that the Junior Cert is seven weeks away.. but we're not going to mention that. 

I started off my homework and study plan with English Homework, personally English is one of my favorite subjects and I like to start with a subject I like just so I can feel some what good about myself. I find that when I do homework or when I study for a subject like Business or Irish which I am not good at all I can feel sad or my motivation drops.

Literally all I did today was homework and study. I'm glad I did it, but I wish I did a little bit more. I wish it wasn't so hard to study. This is my weekend morning routine I hope you enjoyed it. Personally, I love watching and reading Routine videos on YouTube and Blogs, because I get to see the day in the life of that person. If you would like me to do another routine or another type of Blog post let me know. Hope you slay this week.

Lots of love,

         Fiona xx

I'm Only Human

I've been thinking a lot this past week. I am the type of person that punishes myself for every slight thing. That in its self can get exhausting. I'm not sure if I am even going to post this or not, this is just me rambling as usual.

I'm Only Human - Fiona Mc Namara

♡

I'm not perfect, will never be,

I smile, I hurt, that's just the way it is.

I mess up, destroying,

I make mistakes, who doesn't?

I'm only human.

I breakdown, I can't take the pain,

I get caught up in the mess my life entails,

I can't cope, finding everything difficult.

I cry allowing the emotion to escape, who doesn't?

I'm only human.

I'm mean, I'm selfish,

I'm cold and harsh.

I'm clingy and annoying,

I sometimes hate who I am, who doesn't?

I'm only human.

I sometimes don't treat people the way I should, 

I can be ungrateful and greedy,

Impatient and stubborn,

However I'm me and 

I'm only human

♡

If you read it all thank you! This is something I've been piecing together in my mind for weeks and weeks. I hope you enjoyed it, and remember you are perfect the way you are.

Lots of love, 

                 Fiona xx

Get To Know Me Tag

Hello lovelies, today I decided to do something a little bit different! As you can tell from the title today I am doing the Get To Know Me Tag. I have been blogging for seven months already, which is crazy, and I've never done anything like this. Without further ado let's get into it!

1.  Name? - Fiona Audrey Anne Mc Namara 
2. Height? 5ft1 (I'm tiny)
3. Weight? 7.5 stone
4. Age? 16
5. Birthday? 18th of August 1999
6. Girl BFF? Aileen, literally love her so much. She's helped me through more than I know, and she always makes me laugh. She is so encouraging of this blog. 
7. Guy BFF? Oisin, he's just so supportive and amazing. 
8. Crush? Yess
9. Ever fell in love? I'm not sure
10. Favorite food? Chicken Curry
11. Last text message? Ciara: where are you? 
12. Longest relationship? I've only had one so that one, which was nine months
13. Eye color? Green
14. Battery Percentage? 46%
15. Addiction? Instagram, and if you're not following me, follow me! @http.lookitsfifi (shameless self promo)
16. Favorite song? At the moment I've been loving Jamie Lawson Cold In Ohio 
17. Favorite animal? Dogs, I love them so much
18. Sing in the shower? You know it 
19. One wish? That I could get through my anxiety  
20. Best time in your life? This is a hard one, I would have to say moments when you have all of your family in the one place, family time is so important to me. 
21. Country you live in? Ireland 
22. Pets? Unfortunately I don't have any at home, but my Dad has a beautiful dog named Bruce! Who I love so much! He's such a cutie! 
23. Plan on getting married? If it happens it happens, although I feel incredibly sorry for the poor soul that has to put up with me
24. Favorite subjects? I am not good at school to say the least but I do love History and English
25. First kiss? Yep
26. Insecure? Unfortunately I'm very insecure, however I'm working on it, which I guess is the main thing 
27. Ever self-harmed? I'm happy to say I haven't. There have been times I've thought about it, but thankfully I haven't gone through with it. A part of me knows that hurting myself more than I feel, isn't going to make me feel better about myself. Of course everyone has different coping methods. When I feel sad, I'll just cry to get the emotion out and then I'll just watch some YouTube, or do something like taking photos. If you ever feel like self harming remember there are always other ways to cope, of course because I don't self harm I wouldn't know how difficult it may be to stop once you have started! You can always find something else to make you feel better, you can do it 
28. Who you love? Romantically nobody! I do have a crush but I like him, not love him
29. Miss anyone? Always
30. Hair color? Brown
31. Relationship status? Singleee
32. Last song you heard? Selena Gomez Hands to myself
33. Biggest fear? Public speaking
34. Believe in ghosts? Honestly, yes.
35. Something you hate? People who think it's okay to pick on someone and make them feel like shit. No love, sit down love yourself and don't make an innocent person feel like shit, if you don't like someone fair enough that doesn't mean you need to be an ass. 
36. Favorite Tv show? Pretty little liars
37. Favorite movie? I still love The Host to be honest, if you haven't seen it I would highly recommend it. 
38. Favorite book? The girl on the train, it was so so good. 
39. Celebrity crush? Brooklyn Beckham he is just woahhh. He'a also very close to my age, so I have some chance right? No lol. 
    
    You're welcome.
40. Jealous of? People who are good at school without effffort. Like please can I get on your level. 
41. Star sign? Leo 
42. Middle name? Audrey 
43. Worst habit? I don't know if I'm the only one that does this, and if you do this too thank god. Sometimes I pull out my eyebrow hair, which is really bad. Which results in bald patches in my eyebrows, now you know 
44. Number of siblings? 6 
45. Sports you play? Nothing because I'm lazy lol
46. Smoke/drink? Nope
47. Describe yourself in one word? Weird
48. Embarrassing moment? I don't think I will ever ever forget this. I was in my Irish class, and we had to write a letter for homework about a time we got punished for mitching school, the word for punish in Irish is Pionas ( or something like it, I don't know I'm terrible at Irish). Low and behold my teacher asked me to read out my letter. So I attempted to read out my essay. I struggled immensely on pronouncing Pionas, so instead I said penis.. yes I said penis. I stopped and my heart beat so quickly, I looked up at my teacher and his face was red. I heard some say "did she actually say that". I carried on with reading my essay as fast as I could. I literally felt like crying. Ahh it was so funny though. Going into that class was incredibly awkward for the next week, to say the least. My friends still constantly remind of of it.... thanks guys. 
49. Future career choice? Photography, blogging and maybe YouTube. 
50. Advice I would have given my twelve year old self? This is a really interesting question actually. When I was twelve I was incredibly awkward. Personality wise, clothes wise basically everything. I found it really difficult to manage everything. Puberty and everything was really tough for me. I would look up to teenagers and I would just want to be them, because I thought they had it so easy. I was always worrying about clothes I wore, at the time Hollister was massively popular at the time and I didn't have any of it. This sounds pathetic. If you've read my Struggle with Anxiety, you may know that I had anxiety. At the age of twelve I didn't know that the weird thoughts I was experiencing was anxiety. If you would like to read that post the link is here: http://lookitsfifi.blogspot.ie/2016/02/my-struggle-with-anxiety.html . To cut a long story short I was incredibly awkward. I would tell myself that you should never compare yourself to other people, because it doesn't do any good at all. I would tell myself that clothes don't matter, you should feel comfortable in yourself. Also I would tell myself that I wasn't crazy and every strange feeling I would get out in public was anxiety. Preteen is a horrible and awkward stage in my opinion. 

That is the Get To Know Me Tag, I hope you enjoyed reading this! I hope you slay this week! Love you. 

Lots of Love, 

                     Fiona x